22.09.2008 & 23.09.2008

Terrible days for me at work as I had to bear with the pain of my feet due to those blisters. And yes! Blisters are back! Argh! They're just so unsightful. =( Other than that, I thought I had already recovered from stomach flu (as sister-in-law referred to as), but in actual fact I hadn't. I was feeling real terrible for these two days.

Probably long hours of computer usage adds on to my terrible-ness, too. Felt a lil hungry, yet had no appetite after getting dinner. But despite this, I still managed to put on weight. How weird could that be? =\ And once again, I've made dear worried again. I'm so sorry, dear..

Work was alright. Colleagues, who are on attachment as well, are really fun to mixed around with. One of the guys, YT, is sucha joker! Adding a bit a lame-ness as well? =X Haas. Seriously, they really made my day. Thanks guys, I really had fun with you. =)

Oh, and this brought me to something else. It's regarding what happened after work on Monday. Dear should know what I'm talking about. I'm sorry to have said that, and felt that way. But you're really silly, dear. I know this don't linked, but just look at Babylon2. I mean, how I treated Babylon2. I've been there for like 65 levels? That's about 1 year and 8 months. I believe you know what happened after that. And the only time I left was when I feel that I no longer have the "face" to stay on in Babylon2, after that Wild Cargo thingy. (and I still remember who that guy is okay!<>.<>) That's how loyal and devoted I am. Look, it's just a guild, yet I treated it that way. What's more, we're talking about a relationship here. So dear, I know it's hard, but try not to bear those silly thoughts in your mind anymore, okay? =)


24.09.2008

Never a day in my life did so much happened. (blah, lousy English.)

Didn't went to work as I was feeling real terrible. That uneasy feeling just won't go away. My feet needs to get some rest too.

Thank goodness I didn't went for work today. I found out something when I woke up. And no, I'm not going a mention a word about something so serious here. Every moment now, I'd think of negative stuffs that might happen. At home, that is. I'm just so afraid you see.

Third trouble of the day. Mum spoke to me again. And I was really.. Ahh, I don't know how to put it. But thank goodness Mum's room was quite dark at that time, else she'd had seen my tears. =\

Dear's really sweet to have come all the way from Ang Mo Kio to bring me to the doctor. Thanks, dear. =) What you said, really touched me you know. Had wanted to visit the doctor initially, but something happened and I decided not to go in the end.

I emailed the whole matter (trouble number three) to second sister-in-law in the night. And it so happened that she's online today. We chatted, and she's behind me. Thanks, second sister-in-law. =) She's always the best candidate to address my relationship problem. I know eldest brother and sister-in-law will be behind me, too. Right? Seriously, their words and support are what keeps me going. x3 I didn't tell dear about this though. =X But I know he'll come to know about this when he SPYS on my blog, right? =D


25.09.2008

Stomach hurts so much in the morning. And it was only until the fourth or fifth time that I managed to cure it. I know that's not the word to use, but well, I just couldn't thought of a word to replace that at the moment. Went in to the office and one of the lady had a chat with me. She dislikes me, I know. The conversation we had today totally hurts me and brought me to tears. Damn. I really hate myself. Had wanted to solve the problem personally but couldn't get to see the boss. Then I had no choice but to take leave.

I broke down in front of dear. And that was the first time I suppose? =\ Argh. Really, seriously, damn. I'm sucha weako. Reached Jurong East, and was actually heading towards 98, until my intuition told me that my favourite bus's arriving. I looked over, and it really is. But then, I saw only one person queuing for the bus, so I'm not really sure if it's coming over. Anyways, we did get on to the bus. And yea, my mood was seriously brighten up immediately. Oh, and that was the first time we took 234 after we got together, right? =)

I managed to get sister-in-law's help after that. Thanks so much. Seriously, if it weren't for sister-in-law, I really wouldn't know what to do. She's really of a big help to me. And I know I'm right in my decision to ask sister-in-law for help with regards to work and studies.

Terrible headache since afternoon. Had wanted to look for cookies' recipes online but had to put a halt to it. =(

Oh and before I forget, I listened to one of the songs from Raymond Lam's second album today. That was the second third one actually. First song was actually posted up when I first did Cynthia's quiz. Anyway, that was really nice! Trust me, his voice's as charming mesmerising as always! =D I must get to the music store real soon.


26.09.2008

Problem's solved, I hope. But now, I'm starting to think of the complications, though sister-in-law and dear already told me everything will be fine. I know I'm always thinking alot, but still... Results will be releasing next Thursday, followed by polytechnic application when school reopens I suppose, and I really couldn't help worrying. My greatest wish is to get in to polytechnic and I believe those who knows me very well will know about this. I'm really worried my results and application to the polytechnic might get jeopardised because of this matter.

Thanks dear and sister-in-law for being by my side all these while. Dear especially. I'm really sorry to have made you worried these days. And dear, I'm afraid we won't get to celebrate on that day.. =(

And this is a day of reminiscencing! =D


I'm really afraid of being alone at home. And I must be extra cautious with my keys, too. Argh. Is that how one should behave at home?

Labels: 01.08.2008, Babylon2, CD, Hurt, Reminiscence, Stressed, Troubled