现在，人生对我已经没有意义了。。

是你给了我勇气再爱一次。。也是你，让我无法再爱、无法再相信爱。。

我的最爱，始终还是你。。

我已没办法再爱任何人了。。

我只恨我自己，为什么让你再踏入我的人生。。

你没错，最错，都是我。。

谢谢你的爱 （如果确实有在）。。

没了你，也没意义、没生存的价值。。

也没什么好留念的了。。


Dear, I don't know if you'll ever read this.. But you were the one who gave me the courage to love again.. But now without you, I don't think I'll have anything to live for anymore..

Without me, you're so much happier and without obstacles..

I'm sorry that I pestered you for so long.. I didn't want to do that at all..

Farewell.. And please take care..

I love you..

Labels: Feelings, Past, Thoughts

突然觉得人生没意义。

失业快2个月了，原以为终于找到好工作了，但到头来一场空。而现在，又要从头再来。

感情方面，以为幸福又回到我身边了，但想不到一波三折，也是一场空。

日子一天一天地过，而我的斗志力也一天一天地减弱。。

不知从几时开始，心情就一直这样低落。已经好久没真正地笑过了。。

为什么不幸的事总是发生在我身上？

为什么总只有我羡慕别人的份？

我想，应该没任何人像我这么失败吧？

突然觉得好无助。。做什么事都毫无意义。。已没任何目标可奋斗的了。。

我对我自己感到非常失望。。

Labels: Feelings, Thoughts

Officially out.

11 days to 3rd anniversary in company. 1 month to 2 years in this project.

Much as I can't bear to leave partly because this project is my baby, I still have to.

And now, I've left them both. For good.

Am thankful to my juniors for being such sweet guys on my last day. *touched*

Thanks for appreciating to make me feel my efforts is not wasted. :)

Labels: Feelings, Thoughts, Work

One message. Just one.

Just a one-line preview is enough to send me back to the past over these few days. The past.. which I had already let go of over time.

Thank you for coming back to "haunt" me again.

I've finally took the courage to read that message. It left me ponder what exactly you're thinking now.

And as for myself, I'll need some time to digest.

Till then.

Labels: Feelings, Thoughts

不知道为什么，但就有点害怕读那个message.

觉得奇怪。毕竟背叛的人是他，而不是我。

所以，到底有什么好怕的？

可能，就是担心会影响到我的心情吧。

Labels: Feelings, Thoughts

Was on the way home earlier on, when I received a Facebook friend request from someone. A very familiar name I would say.

Thought it "might be" someone who so happened to share the same name, until I visited his profile page earlier on. That familiar face + his name, followed by I-don't-wanna-mention-his-name, and some other familiar names. Yes, it's really that buddy of his. And no, I've never forgot their names even after so many years.

And I'm really wondering why did this buddy of his added me on Facebook out of a sudden. I mean, it's been like 5-6 years already. And I've got nothing to do with that someone anymore, let alone his buddy, whom I've never contacted before, and barely talked less than 10 sentences, probably?

Oh well. Never mind. My bed's more important than anything else for now.

Labels: Thoughts

Back from my fourth Taiwan trip last night. :)

这趟台湾之旅，从收集资料，策划，到执行行程，都由我一手包办。从高雄一路杀到台北，再从台北到基隆，搭乘所有交通工具 （高铁，火车，巴士，渡轮，的士）。本还以为策划的行程是不可能的任务，但我们居然都一一征服了（就除了2／3个景点之外）。

一直以来都很想亲自体验这样的旅程，而这次终于给我盼到了。Thanks BFF for making this trip possible!

亲自体验了所有事物，感觉超有成就感的！

Labels: Holidays, Relaxation, Thoughts

随着时间慢慢地逝去，人，也慢慢地改变。是好、或是坏，就只有旁观者最清楚，因为当事人往往都被自己的改变而蒙蔽。

Labels: Thoughts

那，只是一场梦。

Labels: Feelings, Thoughts

Cleaned parents' room this morning and found a book left behind by Uncle Peter. Flipped through it and saw his last words.. Emotions started pouring in and my tears started rolling down but I had to hold back before Mum comes home. His words were all very heartwrenching. I can imagine how heavy he was feeling, but the fears will never be understood other than Uncle Peter himself..

I missed you so dearly, Uncle Peter.. :'( Is everything alright over there?

Life's really unfair to have taken you away from us so early.. You were a really nice person. Needless to say, you were the best son to grandma, and the best uncle to us. It's really unfair how you had to succumb to the deadly acute leukemia.

I don't understand.. I really don't understand..

Labels: Family, Feelings, Thoughts

很痛。。还是很痛。。

专程去TPY是要吃了早餐就顺便去眼镜店，但原来眼睛店星期一休息，所以只得到＂那个地方＂去。结果经过那整段很熟悉的路，不禁把那些我一直努力想忘掉的回忆给勾起了。都已过了这么久，但原来我根本就无法忘记他对我造成的伤害。很痛。真的还是很痛。他们都说双子很flirt，但为何我却这么痛苦？

请别跟我说什么＂又没叫你去想＂、＂都已过了这么久，又有什么关系＂之类的话。去想，只是作贱自己。你知道我不想不去想咩？你的感情一帆风顺，你当然无所谓。也可以这么说，我承认我没那么洒脱，好吗？我的性格就是这样。所以，除非你和我一样，否则，不要对我说那些废话。毕竟，这种事是因人而异的。

Labels: Feelings, Past, Thoughts

"A picture speaks a thousand words."

Hell yeah. I've got loads of photos to upload. Guess they'll sum up whatever's missing during my hiatus. :)

Labels: Photos, Thoughts

It's true that Xiao Huang Qi sang really well. But I thought, he doesn't make a good teacher. Just look at how other teachers (singers) bring the contestants into the songs. They gave the contestants alot of opportunities to unleash their potential, with the contestants singing more than than the singers themselves. They (the contestants) are the stars of the day. Shouldn't the highlights all be on them?

Out of the six contestants, I've seen three of the performances. Michael Wong and A-lin did really well, especially Michael Wong. However, Xiao Huang Qi seems inferior in comparison. Jay Huang, I thought, sang really well in this song. But he wasn't given much chances. To be honest, Jay Huang was totally "covered over" by Xiao Huang Qi. And even after they finished singing, the attention were all on Xiao Huang Qi, leaving Jay Huang aside as if he's invisible. I mean, come on, it's true Xiao Huang Qi is a great. But give some respect to the contestants, can't they? This is, afterall, their competition.

Undeniably, Jay Huang's one of the contestants I look up to, in this competition. He's got a really nice vocal. And it's true too, that, Jay Huang has been a person with low confidence. But this song is by far the best I've heard of him. I thought it's really such a pity. Nevertheless, hopefully there'll be chances of him releasing an album in the near future - like Wong Jinglun - despite a sixth-placed position.

Labels: Million Star, Music, Thoughts

错的人 - 萧亚轩

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正的可笑

爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕
我太笨 明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
但我相信有点可能
可能 在爱里面这样算笨
可能 永远没有所谓永恒
但是我 不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

Labels: Feelings, Lyrics, Thoughts

   She always enjoyed life the way it was meant
   But clouds they came and played their game
   Casting a spell so she'd fade away
   But will she stand up to fight and protect her life
   Be what she wanted to be... an angel in the dark

Labels: Feelings, Lyrics, Thoughts

"人生路上甜苦和喜忧
愿与你分担所有
难免曾经跌倒和等候
要勇敢的抬头
...
阳光总在风雨后
乌云上有睛空
珍惜所有的感动
每一份希望在你手中"

Labels: Lyrics, Music, Quotes, Thoughts

A follow-up to YL's post:

I strongly believe communication is essential for a relationship to work well. Without it, misunderstandings will arise again and again. Thus, resulting in a failed relationship. Having been through it, and am a victim of this, true enough - I believe I'm more matured when it comes to relationship matters now.

Will provide more insights on this after my exams. :)

Labels: Thoughts

不要等到需要了，才积累人脉。不要等到有时间了，才去读书。不要等到身无分文，才想起储蓄。不要等到痛苦了，才放下。不要等到那个人走了，才珍惜。不要等到同龄人都成功了，才知道玩物丧志。不要等到变老了，才懂得忘掉。 不要等到拥有很多时，才学会分享。

Labels: Thoughts

Life is so unpredictable. You'll never know what's going to happen.

Despite leading a healthy lifestyle, healthy diet and exercising regularly, you'll still succumb to illness. There's no such thing as "xxx is such a kind-hearted person, always in a good health, etc. Why does this happen to him/her?". What will be, will be. Such is life.

It's just too sudden.

Labels: Feelings, Thoughts

Labels: Feelings, Thoughts