二姑姑，辛苦你了。

一路走好。。

Labels: Family

没睡得很好，还一直梦见你。。但不管怎样，都不肯看一下手机。。直到刚刚，终于忍不住，才看了下WhatsApp。慢慢scroll，慢慢scroll，希望他们是在聊其他事。看到了第一行。。我最怕的事终于发生了。。辛苦你了，二姑姑。。一路走好。。我不会忘了你带给我们的欢笑。。对不起，没办法见到你最后一面。。

Was feeling very 心酸 when I saw you in the hospital on Thursday.. I almost couldn't call you because I was already holding back my tears, not wanting you to hear a teary-voiced me.. Thanks for opening your eyes to see us awhile..

Reaching this stage of life, the best thing would definitely be having your own family as well as family from maiden home to stay by your side. I know you're tired and been struggling. Thanks for waiting for Dad, Mum, Aunt, and Uncle to visit you..

I will never forget the laughter you brought.. Still remember, I'll always tease you by chasing you back home because you didn't bring my favourite agar-agar when you came over. And whenever I see the raisin butter cake when I'm back from work, I know, you were here. Then I went to the refrigerator to check if my agar-agar was there. Your agar-agar is definitely the best that I ever had. I'm sorry I didn't learn from you the other time. But I'll definitely miss such times we had.

Things are really happening too fast. From the day you were admitted till the day we got news of your diagnosis and that you'll be left with just 1 - 2 weeks, it's just barely 1.5 weeks only. And from the day we know you were left with just 1 - 2 weeks, it's merely 2 days.. Why, how could 1 - 2 weeks become just 2 days only?!? Things are happening just too fast...

RIP, 二姑姑...

Four kins in six years.. Just what is happening? :'(

Labels: Family, Feelings

So, it's the time of the year again. Time for some reflections.

• My 1 year 3 months' wait wasn't in vain.. It really came true in January. Like, so drama. lol. ❤ It wasn't a smooth-sailing one though. Hopefully things will turn for the better come 2014.


• Went a total of four countries for holidays this year. Cool, yeah? Hehe. Was on my third trip to Taiwan with parents and brother in May, following which we went Korea two days later. Then, we went Genting in June. The last time I went, was more than ten years ago! And lastly, went Bangkok with brother in October. (must scrimp and save fast to recover the monetary loss over the four trips =X)


• Started having colleagues from my own company from my third project. The team lead's of the same age as me, and he thought I'm a lot younger than he is. Hehe. Anyway, I've been looking up to him as a brother since day one.
  
  The week after the commencement of the project, we've got a new staff on board to assist temporarily. A funny guy actually. But sigh, he's really turned my life upside down recently. :( I really hope what he's been telling me is the truth and it will come true soon..


• Am currently on my fourth project for the company already. Location-wise, wasn't that great.. Worst thing is, I had to give up taking 334 because there's better alternative, which is something I wouldn't wanna do. :( Anyway, it's already my fifth month here. Workload is getting heavier, especially this month with more responsibilities taken up. Oh, and I've definitely learned much more here as compared to the previous projects.

So that pretty much sum up my life in 2013.

I wish for a better 2014 for me.. Hopefully 2014 will be better.

Labels: Family, Holidays, Loves, Reflection, Work

So long since I last blogged.. Now that it's the last day of the year, it has already became a habit for me to blog on the last day of the year no matter what. lol.

To start off, shall do some reflections of the year..

• Completed my  internship with my dream company - EY :)

Labels: Family, Reflection, Work

Latest addition to the family. :)

Labels: Family

| Sunday, 26 August 2012

21:35

Yet another week will pass when the clock strikes 12 tonight. Oh, and definitely something to be joyous for. That is, it's payday soon! Woohoo! :D

Am lazy to type much today. So shall let the pictures do the talking then. :)

*Surprise!* Saw the chocolate on my desk while setting up my laptop at the office on Tuesday. Specially flown in from Japan, with courtesy from my colleague. Hehe. ❤ I had initially thought it was from my supervisor as I didn't know this colleague went Japan as well. Oops. >_< It was only when she passed me the bottom 2 that I found out the chocolate was from her. Thanks so much; I really appreciate it. :) *touched* Oh, and the one on the bottom left, I couldn't quite remember what it was called/ resembles, but I thought, it was really cute. Hehs.

爱心午餐 - sesame chicken - from Dad, again. Feel so loved, that he will buy lunch for me whenever he's around my office area during lunch hours. ❤ Frankly speaking, I didn't know this was sesame chicken until I asked him at night. lol. =X Was a lil oily though; and the silly me didn't thought of removing the oil before I eat. Tsk. But thank goodness, there's the dark soy sauce with chilli. Yea, it seems weird, but thanks to this, I don't feel that much of disgusted (by the oil). THANKS DAD! ^_^ ❤

Sigh~ This elder brother of mine.. Traitor can. :( He's been rather disappointed with Liverpool's form of late, that he said he wanna switch to its deadly rival. :( I know though, that he's not serious. :P And we sort of started a "fight" in WhatsApp, then my sister-in-law sent the top photo - the Liverpool romper my brother bought for my nephew. I replied, saying, they should strike off "and daddy". Then, my brother went on to edit the photo, substituting "daddy" with "aunt". Heh hehs. That should be it okayyy! ;)

Oh, and there's a new player on loan from Real Madrid. Sahin, if I remember correctly. Younger brother told me that he's a wonder-kid, and Arsenal were trying to sign him on loan too. Yep, so he chose Liverpool over Arsenal. Mwahaha! :D And what made him come to that decision? Xabi Alonso.

"Alonso told me to join LFC" - that's what Sahin said. I read the interview, and was deeply touched by Alonso, his words, everything. He was my no. 1 favourite Liverpool player - Michael Owen was my no. 1, but Alonso soon emerged as the top (I didn't like Steven Gerrard back then, lol). And yes, I was utterly disappointed when he had to leave Liverpool that time. I was left thinking he's not that loyal as I thought he was, and all those negative thoughts. Then, an interview with Liverpool late last year (if I remember correctly) made me realised I was all wrong about him. His love for Liverpool, has never fade at all. He still loves Liverpool, and am concern over Liverpool. Touched by him, my love for him has since been reinstated. Then followed by Sahin's interview, I know this guy really love Liverpool a lot.

Thanks Alonso, and sorry for wronging you all these while. :( The Liverpool supporters are loving you once again. You'll Never Walk Alone, ever! ❤

Oh, and I have to say, I believe Alonso's not the only factor in Sahin's decision. I believe Jose Mourinho played a part in his decision too. Yes? Thanks, The Special One. Uh nope, The Only One. lol. So cute of him to brand himself these names. Hahs.

Okay, seems that I've blogged quite a lot despite saying I'm lazy. =X Oh well, it's like that, when blogging about my love. :D

Labels: Family, Football, Liverpool, Pictures, Work

| Saturday, 18 August 2012

19:06

走进你房里找东西，却又不禁地忆起你。。这就是我不喜欢到你房里的原因。不知不觉，你已经离开了一年七个月零一天。但你无时无刻都没离开过我心房。。很多时候都不自觉地想起你。。想到你离开的最后那几天。。想到你多么的痛苦；还一度要我们让医生让你拔管。好心酸。。敬爱的叔叔，你别来无恙？

妈妈要我到你房里整理你的东西。。说，要是我不需要的话，就给女佣或丢掉。当然，我有万分的不舍。。尽管我知道留着也没用，但毕竟那些都是你的遗物。。都有你的回忆。我真不知道该怎么办才好。。:'(

Labels: 17.01.2011, Family, Misses, Reminiscence

| Sunday, 29 July 2012

20:46

Here's goodbye to the weekend once again. Oh by the way, my first "official" pay is in on Friday! Can you imagine the excited-ness in me? Seeked "advice" from brother and sister-in-law yesterday about the amount to give parents. Hehs. I thought what I had wanted to give initially was considered as a meager sum. Thank goodness, it was above what they gave. >.< And I'm able to reduce my expenses upon their suggestions. *gonna give the money to them in a few minutes' time. gosh, so pai sehhhh. >.<*

I think my insurance policies and education savings are really taking a toll on me. :( Oh well, but these are the necessities of life. All I can do now, is to scrimp and save. Slowly climb up the rank and with the "better" pay, I could better repay Dad and Mum. :)

Well anyway, I've already started planning for the trip to Taiwan next year! Heh heh. Gonna draw up a rough one to estimate the expenses. It's too early - I know, I know. But I'm just someone who will start doing / planning something that I really have interest in, no matter how early it is. Hah. :x I think it's possible to do a less than $2,000 one. Hopefully will be able to go lower than that. :)

I have no idea what got into me today, but someone, I feel that my grammar really do sucks today! =\

Labels: Ecstatic, Family, Holiday

| Saturday, 28 July 2012

23:22

Omgggg!! I really really cannot stand my brother! He's been farting throughout the whole day (way too much; lost count totally). Worst still, they stink real badly! -___-

Labels: Family

| Thursday, 28 June 2012

23:33

Wish me the best of luck please. >.<

Dear Grandpa, Uncle Peter and Uncle Mao:

I hope my prayers are heard. I'm entering an important phase of my life tomorrow. Would you all please give me your blessings tomorrow? Deeply appreciate it. Thanks! <3

Labels: Family

| Wednesday, 27 June 2012

22:17

Mum: You still don't look for a boyfriend huh?

Me: You think it's so easy meh?
Mum: ... (before she could continue, she got interrupted by me when I stopped brother from putting the Vitagen into the refrigerator =X)

Dear Mum, you're very cute hor? >.<

Labels: Family

| Tuesday, 26 June 2012

23:05

Cleaned parents' room this morning and found a book left behind by Uncle Peter. Flipped through it and saw his last words.. Emotions started pouring in and my tears started rolling down but I had to hold back before Mum comes home. His words were all very heartwrenching. I can imagine how heavy he was feeling, but the fears will never be understood other than Uncle Peter himself..

I missed you so dearly, Uncle Peter.. :'( Is everything alright over there?

Life's really unfair to have taken you away from us so early.. You were a really nice person. Needless to say, you were the best son to grandma, and the best uncle to us. It's really unfair how you had to succumb to the deadly acute leukemia.

I don't understand.. I really don't understand..

Labels: Family, Feelings, Thoughts

| Thursday, 31 May 2012

11:04

Happy Birthday to my dearest Mum! May you stay healthy always! ❤

I know I may not be the best daughter, talking back to you at times. But just so you know, I really love you. I know you dote on me a lot too, it's just that I overlooked that at times. Sorry Mum. >.<

Right now, I'm hoping to complete the exams soon, so I could lift a load off my chest and look for a job so I could pamper you all. ❤

Labels: Birthday, Family

| Sunday, 4 March 2012

22:23

I'm feeling an even stronger homesickness already, with just less than three days to go. It'll be the first time I'm away from my family. Though it's not very far (like 10 over hours' flight), but still, I'll definitely think of them all day, especially my beloved grandma. I feel really bad having to leave her for so long, when I know I'm the person whom grandma always look for, apart from Uncle Peter. Now that Uncle Peter has left us, I feel all the more obliged to stay by grandma's side.

It'll be a 10-day trip again this time round. To be exact, this is my graduation trip. I've always had the thought that I should go for a graduation trip before I start work. This is so, because, once I start work, I know I'll be buried under nothing but work and work. Thus, this is the best time to enjoy before I "sell" (err.. okay, I'd actually meant "devote". lol.) myself to the working industry. >.<

I'm so sorry, grandma. Please take good care of yourself, alright? And please, Uncle Peter, please do look after grandma in my absence, alright? I know you've always done that, and will continue to do so. :)

Labels: Family, Holiday

| Tuesday, 10 January 2012

15:00

Happy 30th pearl wedding anniversary, Mum & Dad! ^_^

❤❤❤

Cooking curry chicken and making salad prawn to celebrate, huh? I got food poisoning, you know? >_<

Labels: Family, Food

| Saturday, 7 January 2012

23:13

Woke up early today for Uncle Peter's ritual. Thank goodness my eyebags aren't as heavy as yesterday's. >.<

Burnt the incense papers and I remember how fast and nicely spread it was when Uncle Peter's the one making it. Uncle Peter, it's been a lunar year since you left. You're so deeply missed.

Your best buddies were there today too. Did you see it? Really appreciate their coming. Although there were nothing they could do, but they still came. They just sat there and chat around with one another because only our family need to be involved in the ritual. Hope they won't feel neglected that we didn't really spoke to them. >.< All in all, thank you uncles for coming! :)

Was out for almost the whole day. Feel really bad that we've to leave grandma alone at home. No one to see and talk to, other than the maid. But I doubt the maid chatted much with grandma too. Am wondering if I made a bad choice on going for my graduation trip too. Because that will mean leaving grandma for 10 days. Brother doesn't chat with grandma. And with Uncle Peter's gone, I'm the only one who'll chat most with grandma. So ya.. :(

Labels: 17.01.2011, Family, Holiday

| Friday, 6 January 2012

22:03

Wow, I've just realised I've been blogging everyday in 2012. Haa.

❤

I don't post up my photo very often. In fact, it's very rarely. Thus, when I post one up, you should know it's because I have confidence in myself uh. Well, for this, it's because I think I look really cute in this photo. *getting a bit 臭美 recently. oops.* I love my rebonded hair (though it doesn't make much difference except for the frizzy part) with this fringe's length. I've to admit getting the fringe short was a mistake initially (I didn't want it so short, but the hairstylist trimmed and trimmed, and it ended up so short =\). But hey, it looks quite nice, isn't it? lol.

Realised I've got heavy eyebags too. Urgh. I'm so lacking of sleep! It looks really ugly can. I didn't used to have it, but what now? Seriously sad to the max. =\ 

Anyway, I feel that my recent posts make no sense at times (referring to the grammar). Well, been getting lazy to do a double-check nowadays. Still as descriptive though. I guess many might feel that my posts are very descriptive too. Well, that's because I wanna have the moments captured as detailed as possible since I don't have a good memory. And so, when I look back, I'll be able to relate better.

Alrights, shall end my post here. Have to go to bed real soon because we'll be making a trip to the temple tomorrow for some rituals thingy for Uncle Peter's first anniversary (lunar). That being said, hope Uncle Peter's doing well up there. With love. ❤

Labels: 17.01.2011, Beauty, Family, Photos, Shagged

| Thursday, 5 January 2012

23:27

为什么我的阿嬷这么可爱？哈哈！(⌒▽⌒)

Labels: Family

| Saturday, 31 December 2011

23:52

Alrighty. I'm back to continue my final post for 2011. So how's 2011 for me? Lots of ups and downs I'd say. And it all start right from the beginning of the year.

January

Just a week before Uncle Peter passed away, on 10 January, I was out with Mum and brother to shop for CNY stuffs when we received a phone call from Uncle Peter's buddy, Uncle Koh. He told us that Uncle Peter wants to give up fighting already, and wants us to give the go ahead for him. Of course, we weren't agreeable to it. And he seemed to have given up the thought a few days later. However, his condition turned for the worse during this period. Fever not being able to subside and internal blessings occurred. Breathing became very difficult for him and at times we were very afraid he'll be leaving us. I'm really afraid of receiving phone calls from brother when I was in school. Because a phone call spells bad signs.

We were all taking turns taking care and staying by Uncle's side from Friday to Sunday during that week. Breathing worsen many times but Uncle seemed to breeze through. Worsen again just before we left the hospital on Sunday night. However was alright after some time. For the very first time, I didn't mute my phone because I was really afraid Uncle might not survive through. All the way till I woke up for school, no phone calls from 3rd uncle who was accompanying him at the hospital. So I thought, no news = good news. Had planned to accompany him after my lesson on Monday. Then at 8.45am, Mum phoned and told me what I had planned too. At 9.10am, another phone call. This time, it was brother. He told me to get to the hospital. I thought I could still see Uncle Peter. But he last breathed at 9.19am, when I was hailing a cab. I couldn't assure him in time that he need not worry about grandma - the person he worries most. No promises could be made. And this really saddens me. Nothing could describe how I'm feeling. Even till now, it still aches me bitterly. Never in my life have I cried so terribly, not even when Uncle Mao passed away three years ago. 17 January 2011. That was the worst day of my life. This is definitely a very big blow to me.

My only regrets are not visiting you him often enough, and not giving him the assurance that I wanted to. :( Till now, I still can't accept the fact that he's left us. I really don't understand why such thing had to happen to such a great person like him. I really don't understand.

Dedicated a post to Uncle Peter on Facebook the night before we send him on his last journey. And that was when I 'sort of' return to Facebook.

But grandma's been well during the period of Uncle Peter's absence. I know for sure, Uncle's been looking after grandma up there. Right, Uncle Peter? :)

Oh yea, I did managed to fulfill something though. I've finally brought grandma out for exercise last Saturday. Though only once for the whole of 2011, but it's still better than none, right? =x

真的好想你。

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Posted about the heartbreak as well, and seeking forgiveness from the besties about my MIA. I suppose my family really did somehow found out about our patch. Heard from brother that it's also due to this that Uncle don't feel safe to leave what he's left with, with me. Hmm.. even Uncle also knows that jerk's unreliable, and is likely to con me of my stuffs. Well done, Uncle! But your niece's ain't stupid, hor. ;)

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March

Went Taiwan for a holiday, like finally. This trip definitely came at a time no better than this. Following the heartbreak, Uncle Peter passing away, as well as the stress over studies, this getaway is definitely a very much needed one. Oh, and this is the first oversea trip after like nine years?! Excited to the max can! ^_^

It was a 10-day trip to Taiwan and mind you, Taiwan's a really great place to visit! Totally fell in love with Taiwan and can't wait to go again! ^_^ Oh yea, did I mention seeing some handsomes over there? My xiao wei and alishan~~ Ahhhh!! Wonder if I can still get to see them when I travel next year. But luck's not with me, because my camera, or rather, the SD card died on me on the second or third day. I didn't know at all, and continued snapping around. Came back and checked the photos, could only retrieve a lil portion of it. Damn sad-ed, you know? Moreover, my alishan's gone too! Sad to the infinity can! I not only snapped pictures of him, but I also took a video of him singing. Like, what the hell! :'(

Luggage overloaded. Could be because it's my first trip there - lotsa things to buy. lol. So lesson learnt - I'm opting for 30kg for the trip next year. I'd rather pay a lil more for now, than paying so much more should I really exceeded the limit.

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April

Met up with the besties, like finally. We met on April Fool's, did we? A lil awkward too, because I haven't met them for so long. And I feel really bad for MIA-ing. Sorry gals. I'm really thankful that they didn't give up this friendship. <3 Anyway, it's bowling session that day. It's my first time too.

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July

Got back the Common Test results and I'm really disappointed in myself. I failed Managerial Accounting module, not by 1 or 2 marks, but by a relatively big margin. Made a grave mistake and it cost me dearly. Was so disappointed that I 'blamed' my ancestors for not blessing me no matter how sincere I am. And thus followed by blaming them for not blessing Uncle Peter when he's even more sincere than I am, and a very much better, filial person than I am. I know I shouldn't do that, but I just can't help myself, especially after Uncle Peter was rewarded leukemia with sincerity. I'm so sorry, ancestors. But now I know why they don't bless me. Mum just told me the other day that my grandfather didn't used to like me when he was still around. He was more of the traditional type - favours boys over girls. So, that probably explains why? Hmm.. But I'm glad grandma's not like my grandfather. I heard she loves girls. No wonder she dotes on me so much. And even till now, she's always looking for me. Like, there was once when I got home late and she didn't sleep because of that. x_x I'm still like a lil girl to her. She's always asking me to eat when it's dinner time, like so afraid I'll go hungry. Haa. Grandma, I love you. <3

Anyway, even till now, it still pricks me whenever I heard of people getting leukemia. It'll just remind me of Uncle Peter.. The suffering he'd gone through.. The life taken away. Why, why such a healthy person like him had to suffer this? But I thank God for not taking Uncle Peter away from us so fast. He managed to survived through a period of seven months, when the doctor had estimated a period of two to three months.

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Another thing. I went for a concert for the very first time of my life! Like, WOW! It's the Korean Music Wave 2011 and I'm so amazed. All thanks to my cousin, who came for a holiday with 3rd aunt and and her brother. My cousin's a truly Korean-craze. Haa. And it so happened that this concert falls within the period they're here. She wants to go so badly, and aunt got me to accompany her.

Actually I'm not that keen in going, because the concert so happened to fall on the same day as Aaron Yan's autograph session at IMM. However, she won't be able to go if I don't agree. So yep. Was really disappointed that I couldn't attend Aaron Yan's thought. :( But anyway, the concert was an experience for me, allowing me to see so many bands at one go, like U-Kiss, FT Island and the likes like Big Bang and 2NE1. Okay, I admit I'm really afraid Big Bang might sing a song, but thank goodness, guess that song was quite some time ago, so they didn't sang it afterall.

Thanks, cousin. You made it possible for my first. :)

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August

This final semester before the internship was really hectic. Totally no life, I'd say. Imagine coming home from school everyday, bathed and had dinner, then up next - sit infront of laptop to do projects. Well, that's been my life for the past six months of the semester. And when I said 'everyday', it's really everyday. Sometimes I really wonder why in the world did I put in hell lotsa effort, when the rest only put in so little, and gotten the same reward. Hard work definitely don't pay off. And this applies to friendship as well. Polytechnic friends to me, are just hi-bye friends. They aren't, and don't make good confidante. And if unlucky, you'll end up being a tool to them. That's my case, probably?

The way they, or rather, she treat me. And she still dare to say I'll surely be MIA after graduation. Hello? You don't know me well definitely. Family, to me, comes first. And friends' up next. Alright? I do cherish friendship alot. And they way you treat me really makes me feel like MIA-ing, too. So what, if I appears during the meet out? I'll always be the one who's being leftout, no matter what. And so what, when I'm always the one giving? You approached me for help, I'll always give all out. Yes, I do, no matter you're close to me or not. But end up? It's just fruitless. Would you appreciate it? No. Well, I guess no matter what I do, the treatment will still be different between us. If so, why don't you jolly well get her to help and just leave me alone?

Everytime I suggested / planned something, you'll disagree. But when 'she' suggested, you'll agree straight. Well, if you don't like my suggestions, then jolly well tell me. Asked me for suggestions, and when I suggest, you don't wanna take it. What do you take me for? Leaving me out is already good enough. And you still had to treat me this way. Oh, and I'm sorry, I seriously don't like the idea of 'her' going Taiwan with us.

I'm sorry, but this ain't the friendship I'd hoped for. Friendship to me, is all about being able to laugh and joke around together. I didn't want to elaborate so much actually, but I just needed a gateway to pour everything out. And my blog, is the best way to do so.

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September

Start of internship. Got into this company very unexpectedly. Was given the option to choose the companies and field that we wanna enter into. However, this company wasn't in the list. Was told that this company actually sent in the application late, hence the omission. I was thinking, since there weren't any company that interests me, I decided to choose the ones with very high pay, so there won't be a chance of me getting in. lol. Then, as expected, out of the six choices given, I did not get into any of it. The in-charge then allocate IRAS to me. However, she phoned me a week later and told me there's openings for this company and asked if I wanna take up the offer. I was like, WOW. Reason being, this company has been the one that I've been wanting to get in since Secondary 4. That was the first accounting firm that I heard of, which probably explains why the feeling for the firm.

So talking about the internship, I didn't learn much actually. Or should I say, it's too complex for me. This department's not what I wanted to enter. However, am glad that the seniors are all nice people. The executive's director a Dutch. Very, very nice and friendly person. :) However, he'll be leaving the company soon. :(

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October

"Quarreled" with one of the poly mates over the Taiwan trip. Thankfully, all's solved. Also went to my very first Dinner & Dance. But not able to wear nice nice though, because my seniors decided to follow the theme. :(

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November

Am showing signs of happiness. Somehow. My days will just be brightened up the moment I saw him. However, the timing seemed to have messed up totally and I could no longer see him. I don't like this feeling really. :( Why in the first place gave me the chance of seeing him, yet take back after awhile? I'd really rather I don't see him at all in the first place. No hope = no disappointments. And now, just because of that short period, I'm always so looking forward to seeing him, but ended up in disappointments and disappointments in the past month. And I suppose, there won't be a next again. Sighs. Such things always happen to me, no?

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December

Went for marathon like finally. Conquered 10km for the timing of 1:23:41. Glad to have achieved such good result, which was also below my target of 1 hour 30 minutes. Also surpassed my 2007 result by an hour. :) And by the way, Mum was so cute can! She told me to keep the running singlet as a "souvenir" and not use it, because it's unique due to the different design every year. lol.

Bought the camera at last. Not DSLR though, due to some issues. Second time back to that place to purchase the camera after September. Actually I'm already numb, but somehow upon reaching, and saw the familiar places, I teared suddenly. Told sis-in-law about it, but well. All I wanted to say is, not everyone take the same time to recover.

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Well, to sum-up everything. I'm really glad he's off my mind at last. Yeah, sort of. Should say, I'm already numb (no feelings) to his name. But his name and that place irks me still. And I'm still on the road to recovery. Hopefully by the time the future one comes, I'll be able to visit those places I detests with him happily.

For those who said this to me, "it's so long already. don't think about him can already." Well, as mentioned earlier, the period of recovery differs. One thing I'd like to say - I did not think of him. Everything just occurred naturally. As an emotional person and one who puts too much feeling into the relationship, if I say it doesn't pricks, I'd be lying. I think I'm already showing good progress to have come thus far. Perhaps for you, your recovery is fast. But hey, that doesn't mean everyone's the same as you. I hope you get what I mean.

Labels: 17.01.2011, Concert, Disappointed, Emo, Family, Feelings, Friends, HS, Internship, Marathon, Memories, New Year, Promise, Reflection, Regrets, Sigh, Stressed, Studies

| Tuesday, 26 April 2011

00:01

100th day. In a blink of an eye, it's 100th day since your passing..

Despite everyone saying there's no need to follow the "no bright clothes and golds" custom, I followed.. It's out of my respect to you, my dear Uncle Peter. You were great, really. I know these are all worthwhile.

You've never left my mind, even when I went for the Taiwan trip.. that's just how much you're missed.

Prayers since you were diagnosed with cancer.. and it never stopped even after you passed away. Today, it's the 100th day since you passed away. Hopefully my prayers are all heard.

Much as I wanted to, I can't.. I'm sorry I wasn't able to go today because I have classes. =(

You'll always be in my thought, Uncle Peter. ❤ *Deeply missed*


PS. I know Dad must've hated my nag for the past two weeks, lol. But all I wanted, was to make sure he called to arrange the ritual/prayer thingy with the master. (who asked him to keep delaying the call =P) I just want to ensure everything are properly arranged, that's all. >_<

Labels: 17.01.2011, Family, Misses