Alrighty. I'm back to continue my final post for 2011. So how's 2011 for me? Lots of ups and downs I'd say. And it all start right from the beginning of the year.

January

Just a week before Uncle Peter passed away, on 10 January, I was out with Mum and brother to shop for CNY stuffs when we received a phone call from Uncle Peter's buddy, Uncle Koh. He told us that Uncle Peter wants to give up fighting already, and wants us to give the go ahead for him. Of course, we weren't agreeable to it. And he seemed to have given up the thought a few days later. However, his condition turned for the worse during this period. Fever not being able to subside and internal blessings occurred. Breathing became very difficult for him and at times we were very afraid he'll be leaving us. I'm really afraid of receiving phone calls from brother when I was in school. Because a phone call spells bad signs.

We were all taking turns taking care and staying by Uncle's side from Friday to Sunday during that week. Breathing worsen many times but Uncle seemed to breeze through. Worsen again just before we left the hospital on Sunday night. However was alright after some time. For the very first time, I didn't mute my phone because I was really afraid Uncle might not survive through. All the way till I woke up for school, no phone calls from 3rd uncle who was accompanying him at the hospital. So I thought, no news = good news. Had planned to accompany him after my lesson on Monday. Then at 8.45am, Mum phoned and told me what I had planned too. At 9.10am, another phone call. This time, it was brother. He told me to get to the hospital. I thought I could still see Uncle Peter. But he last breathed at 9.19am, when I was hailing a cab. I couldn't assure him in time that he need not worry about grandma - the person he worries most. No promises could be made. And this really saddens me. Nothing could describe how I'm feeling. Even till now, it still aches me bitterly. Never in my life have I cried so terribly, not even when Uncle Mao passed away three years ago. 17 January 2011. That was the worst day of my life. This is definitely a very big blow to me.

My only regrets are not visiting you him often enough, and not giving him the assurance that I wanted to. :( Till now, I still can't accept the fact that he's left us. I really don't understand why such thing had to happen to such a great person like him. I really don't understand.

Dedicated a post to Uncle Peter on Facebook the night before we send him on his last journey. And that was when I 'sort of' return to Facebook.

But grandma's been well during the period of Uncle Peter's absence. I know for sure, Uncle's been looking after grandma up there. Right, Uncle Peter? :)

Oh yea, I did managed to fulfill something though. I've finally brought grandma out for exercise last Saturday. Though only once for the whole of 2011, but it's still better than none, right? =x

真的好想你。

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Posted about the heartbreak as well, and seeking forgiveness from the besties about my MIA. I suppose my family really did somehow found out about our patch. Heard from brother that it's also due to this that Uncle don't feel safe to leave what he's left with, with me. Hmm.. even Uncle also knows that jerk's unreliable, and is likely to con me of my stuffs. Well done, Uncle! But your niece's ain't stupid, hor. ;)

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March

Went Taiwan for a holiday, like finally. This trip definitely came at a time no better than this. Following the heartbreak, Uncle Peter passing away, as well as the stress over studies, this getaway is definitely a very much needed one. Oh, and this is the first oversea trip after like nine years?! Excited to the max can! ^_^

It was a 10-day trip to Taiwan and mind you, Taiwan's a really great place to visit! Totally fell in love with Taiwan and can't wait to go again! ^_^ Oh yea, did I mention seeing some handsomes over there? My xiao wei and alishan~~ Ahhhh!! Wonder if I can still get to see them when I travel next year. But luck's not with me, because my camera, or rather, the SD card died on me on the second or third day. I didn't know at all, and continued snapping around. Came back and checked the photos, could only retrieve a lil portion of it. Damn sad-ed, you know? Moreover, my alishan's gone too! Sad to the infinity can! I not only snapped pictures of him, but I also took a video of him singing. Like, what the hell! :'(

Luggage overloaded. Could be because it's my first trip there - lotsa things to buy. lol. So lesson learnt - I'm opting for 30kg for the trip next year. I'd rather pay a lil more for now, than paying so much more should I really exceeded the limit.

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April

Met up with the besties, like finally. We met on April Fool's, did we? A lil awkward too, because I haven't met them for so long. And I feel really bad for MIA-ing. Sorry gals. I'm really thankful that they didn't give up this friendship. <3 Anyway, it's bowling session that day. It's my first time too.

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July

Got back the Common Test results and I'm really disappointed in myself. I failed Managerial Accounting module, not by 1 or 2 marks, but by a relatively big margin. Made a grave mistake and it cost me dearly. Was so disappointed that I 'blamed' my ancestors for not blessing me no matter how sincere I am. And thus followed by blaming them for not blessing Uncle Peter when he's even more sincere than I am, and a very much better, filial person than I am. I know I shouldn't do that, but I just can't help myself, especially after Uncle Peter was rewarded leukemia with sincerity. I'm so sorry, ancestors. But now I know why they don't bless me. Mum just told me the other day that my grandfather didn't used to like me when he was still around. He was more of the traditional type - favours boys over girls. So, that probably explains why? Hmm.. But I'm glad grandma's not like my grandfather. I heard she loves girls. No wonder she dotes on me so much. And even till now, she's always looking for me. Like, there was once when I got home late and she didn't sleep because of that. x_x I'm still like a lil girl to her. She's always asking me to eat when it's dinner time, like so afraid I'll go hungry. Haa. Grandma, I love you. <3

Anyway, even till now, it still pricks me whenever I heard of people getting leukemia. It'll just remind me of Uncle Peter.. The suffering he'd gone through.. The life taken away. Why, why such a healthy person like him had to suffer this? But I thank God for not taking Uncle Peter away from us so fast. He managed to survived through a period of seven months, when the doctor had estimated a period of two to three months.

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Another thing. I went for a concert for the very first time of my life! Like, WOW! It's the Korean Music Wave 2011 and I'm so amazed. All thanks to my cousin, who came for a holiday with 3rd aunt and and her brother. My cousin's a truly Korean-craze. Haa. And it so happened that this concert falls within the period they're here. She wants to go so badly, and aunt got me to accompany her.

Actually I'm not that keen in going, because the concert so happened to fall on the same day as Aaron Yan's autograph session at IMM. However, she won't be able to go if I don't agree. So yep. Was really disappointed that I couldn't attend Aaron Yan's thought. :( But anyway, the concert was an experience for me, allowing me to see so many bands at one go, like U-Kiss, FT Island and the likes like Big Bang and 2NE1. Okay, I admit I'm really afraid Big Bang might sing a song, but thank goodness, guess that song was quite some time ago, so they didn't sang it afterall.

Thanks, cousin. You made it possible for my first. :)

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August

This final semester before the internship was really hectic. Totally no life, I'd say. Imagine coming home from school everyday, bathed and had dinner, then up next - sit infront of laptop to do projects. Well, that's been my life for the past six months of the semester. And when I said 'everyday', it's really everyday. Sometimes I really wonder why in the world did I put in hell lotsa effort, when the rest only put in so little, and gotten the same reward. Hard work definitely don't pay off. And this applies to friendship as well. Polytechnic friends to me, are just hi-bye friends. They aren't, and don't make good confidante. And if unlucky, you'll end up being a tool to them. That's my case, probably?

The way they, or rather, she treat me. And she still dare to say I'll surely be MIA after graduation. Hello? You don't know me well definitely. Family, to me, comes first. And friends' up next. Alright? I do cherish friendship alot. And they way you treat me really makes me feel like MIA-ing, too. So what, if I appears during the meet out? I'll always be the one who's being leftout, no matter what. And so what, when I'm always the one giving? You approached me for help, I'll always give all out. Yes, I do, no matter you're close to me or not. But end up? It's just fruitless. Would you appreciate it? No. Well, I guess no matter what I do, the treatment will still be different between us. If so, why don't you jolly well get her to help and just leave me alone?

Everytime I suggested / planned something, you'll disagree. But when 'she' suggested, you'll agree straight. Well, if you don't like my suggestions, then jolly well tell me. Asked me for suggestions, and when I suggest, you don't wanna take it. What do you take me for? Leaving me out is already good enough. And you still had to treat me this way. Oh, and I'm sorry, I seriously don't like the idea of 'her' going Taiwan with us.

I'm sorry, but this ain't the friendship I'd hoped for. Friendship to me, is all about being able to laugh and joke around together. I didn't want to elaborate so much actually, but I just needed a gateway to pour everything out. And my blog, is the best way to do so.

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September

Start of internship. Got into this company very unexpectedly. Was given the option to choose the companies and field that we wanna enter into. However, this company wasn't in the list. Was told that this company actually sent in the application late, hence the omission. I was thinking, since there weren't any company that interests me, I decided to choose the ones with very high pay, so there won't be a chance of me getting in. lol. Then, as expected, out of the six choices given, I did not get into any of it. The in-charge then allocate IRAS to me. However, she phoned me a week later and told me there's openings for this company and asked if I wanna take up the offer. I was like, WOW. Reason being, this company has been the one that I've been wanting to get in since Secondary 4. That was the first accounting firm that I heard of, which probably explains why the feeling for the firm.

So talking about the internship, I didn't learn much actually. Or should I say, it's too complex for me. This department's not what I wanted to enter. However, am glad that the seniors are all nice people. The executive's director a Dutch. Very, very nice and friendly person. :) However, he'll be leaving the company soon. :(

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October

"Quarreled" with one of the poly mates over the Taiwan trip. Thankfully, all's solved. Also went to my very first Dinner & Dance. But not able to wear nice nice though, because my seniors decided to follow the theme. :(

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November

Am showing signs of happiness. Somehow. My days will just be brightened up the moment I saw him. However, the timing seemed to have messed up totally and I could no longer see him. I don't like this feeling really. :( Why in the first place gave me the chance of seeing him, yet take back after awhile? I'd really rather I don't see him at all in the first place. No hope = no disappointments. And now, just because of that short period, I'm always so looking forward to seeing him, but ended up in disappointments and disappointments in the past month. And I suppose, there won't be a next again. Sighs. Such things always happen to me, no?

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December

Went for marathon like finally. Conquered 10km for the timing of 1:23:41. Glad to have achieved such good result, which was also below my target of 1 hour 30 minutes. Also surpassed my 2007 result by an hour. :) And by the way, Mum was so cute can! She told me to keep the running singlet as a "souvenir" and not use it, because it's unique due to the different design every year. lol.

Bought the camera at last. Not DSLR though, due to some issues. Second time back to that place to purchase the camera after September. Actually I'm already numb, but somehow upon reaching, and saw the familiar places, I teared suddenly. Told sis-in-law about it, but well. All I wanted to say is, not everyone take the same time to recover.

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Well, to sum-up everything. I'm really glad he's off my mind at last. Yeah, sort of. Should say, I'm already numb (no feelings) to his name. But his name and that place irks me still. And I'm still on the road to recovery. Hopefully by the time the future one comes, I'll be able to visit those places I detests with him happily.

For those who said this to me, "it's so long already. don't think about him can already." Well, as mentioned earlier, the period of recovery differs. One thing I'd like to say - I did not think of him. Everything just occurred naturally. As an emotional person and one who puts too much feeling into the relationship, if I say it doesn't pricks, I'd be lying. I think I'm already showing good progress to have come thus far. Perhaps for you, your recovery is fast. But hey, that doesn't mean everyone's the same as you. I hope you get what I mean.

Labels: 17.01.2011, Concert, Disappointed, Emo, Family, Feelings, Friends, HS, Internship, Marathon, Memories, New Year, Promise, Reflection, Regrets, Sigh, Stressed, Studies

*deep sigh*

Ever since that day, I've been dreading drama / movie scenes with characters on their deathbed. The very moment such scenes was telecasted on the television, I'll be automatically brought back to that day where I rushed to hospital, only hear the "toooooo..." sound from the machine, seeing you lying on bed helplessly. Till now, I'm still unable to stop my memories from returning back to that day whenever I heard the "toooooo..." sound.. I guess the demise of you just hit me too much. Even when I was enjoying myself in Taiwan, you never fail to leave my mind.. Many things just reminded me of you; like the cuttlefish which I bought.. Just when I was counting the number of packets to buy, you keep running on my mind.. Cos I know you'll love it if you're still around.

I, too, am still regretting up till now, that I couldn't stay by your side till your last breath.. The day before you passed away, upon knowing that you're afraid and thus would need someone by your side, I had actually planned to visit you right after school the following day.. However, knowing the condition that you're in after we got home that night, I should have skipped my lesson to accompany you.. But I didn't.. I was thinking about it again while on the way to school. However, I still go ahead (to school) because the "no news equal good news" thoughts were all around my mind. That was the only night I had my phone without mute because I'm really worried that something might happen.. Up till I leave home for school, there's no update on your condition, thus I thought your condition was stabalised already. That was why I decided to go ahead with my plan, that is, to visit you after my lesson ends. I really blame myself.. At such point in time, I should've place family before school. I should've really skipped school and accompany you, but I didn't.. I know your biggest worry was grandma.. If I had visited you earlier, I could have assured you that grandma will be well taken care of.. But... Sigh.. It's all "ifs"...

Uncle Peter, I'm so missing you... =(

Hope you won't have to suffer these anymore in the other world.

These has been weighing in my heart since the day you left us.. I've never told anyone about this.. Hopefully with the blogging of this, the load will be lifted a lil.

With the blogging of this, it's time to stop your tears and be brave, gal!

Labels: 17.01.2011, Family, Memories, Regrets

Hello! I'm back! =D

Well, been wanting to update for quite some time already, but the thought of blogging after a day of work just makes sian. Hence shelved the idea till now.

So, let's see.. One-month hiatus from blogging..

09.09.2010

It's the day - Apple and Oto's wedding. Joined in (not really =X) the fun in the morning. It's my first time experiencing these, hehs. The ceremony and everything were simple. Didn't expect to receive red packets though. Thanks auntie and Oto! =D When auntie passed the red packet to me, I was like, "uh..? o_O". It was only shortly after that that I realised the purpose of it, lol. *blur* And for the first time, I felt a sudden surge of family warmth when Oto gave me the red packet. It's like, I'm being recognised more like a family already. =X

Did some simple make-up for the dinner in the evening. Didn't dare to try the eyeshadow until Lyn agreed to experiment it on herself, lol. =X Thanks Lyn, for giving me the courage to apply that, though they were covered by my fringe. =X Guess I need to learn from Lyn already. She's never applied eyeshadow before, but she's courageous enough to try out for a wedding dinner. *pei fu*

Dinner was held at My Humble House at Esplanade. The ambience there was quite nice. =) And the price was rather an affordable one considering the area that it's located at. One thing that I've yet to experience until that day is that the food there were served individually. A rather good concept I would say. Overall, the food were quite nice, except for the shark's fin soup which doesn't taste at all like a shark's fin soup. =\ My favourite food was the fish with the sake sauce, if I remember correctly. It just tastes heavenly! =D And it's probably due to them serving individually that I already felt full into the fourth dish. =X

On the other hand, I think I dressed too nicely, all thanks to dear. =( He wore a blazer and of course, I have to match what he's wearing.


10.09.2010

It's Uncle Peter's birthday. Couldn't celebrate this time round as he's being hospitalised. Been making it a point to remember and celebrate his birthday since two years ago. That was something which we've not done until two years ago. It all started because it was then that I know not to regret only after losing one. Yep, that phrase woken me after the sudden loss of Uncle Mao. No one remembered his last birthday, which was not long before he left us. I only remember younger brother buying a birthday cake for Uncle Mao once. That was a year or two before he passed away. Yep, that's the only time.

Anyway, I so happened to chanced upon Uncle Peter's IC some time later, hence got to know his birth date. I really really hope miracle can happen. I know it ain't easy, Uncle. However, you made it through stages and stages. You really have a strong will. Please don't give up, alright?

Actually I'm really touched by two of uncle's friends. They've been by uncle's side all along and never left him. Such friends are really hard to come by and are the envy of many. Thanks uncles, you've been really great!


13.09.2010

Was kinda "forced" to go out with aunties - my three aunts. =X Normally when my aunt asks me to accompany her for shopping during her off days, I'll reject her straight, lol. But this time round, third aunt was in Singapore, plus second aunt ain't working today, hence decided to accompany them. But of course, that's only part of the reason. The other reason was because aunt offered to bring us to the casino at Marina Bay Sands. Hehs. =D

Aunt's also "zhen shi de". It's only until I've got myself changed and am prepared to set off that she told me we can't enter the casino in shorts. -_-" Had no choice but to change, and she just keep rushing me, making me forgot this and that. Grrr..!! Anyways, off we went to the hospital to visit Uncle first. Saw his friend there and he offered to drive us to Marina Bay Sands as he's on the way. That's really nice of him. =D

Reached the entrance of the casino and off we went to pay the entrance fee, fully sponsored by aunt. =D While waiting for the staff (A) to proceed with our registration, another staff (B) came by and asked the staff (A) if I'm 21 years old already. lolx. =X

Finally entered the casino afterwhich. Another first-time experience again. =D Third aunt got the ball rolling and played jackpot, and yep, she got it. It's only her first try, mind you! Ain't she lucky? >.< She went to collect her winnings and sponsored me to play, hehs. She must have passed some of her luck to me that I managed to hit jackpot too - once before lunch and another after lunch. Really a happy girl that day. Hehs. =D

Went OG at Bugis afterwhich, then off to Uncle's optical shop to collect third aunt's spectacles. It's just so amazed that I could find the way to Uncle's shop without problem. Gotta thanks dear for this because he brought me to eat curry chicken mee at nearby before. *good sense of direction, right? =P*

Shared my joy with dear later in the evening, then phoned Pei Er for a chat, which lasted for more than two hours. Hah. I wonder why there's always so much things to chat with her, or rather, craps with her. lolx. Well, part of the conversation's about us further studying. Gal, you should really go for psychology and not wait for me for accountancy. Your interest lies there, not in accountacy. Besides, don't waste what you've studied in MDIS. >.<

Apart from that, we've also discussed about the chance of going for a holiday with the girls. So time to save up yea? Yan Ling should be alright with the idea I guess. So, girls - Mei Bao and Cynthia - how about both of you? =) I reckon I'll be available only until I graduated. Will it be too long for you girls? >.<

Anyway, another plan is to participate in the marathon next year. But Pei Er wants me to go all the way to her area for training. No, please. =( That's too far for me already.


20.09.2010

Started work at a motor car insurance company. 5.5 days work week. Kinda no life I must say. =\ Thanks dear for making it a point to bring me out for relaxation every week. ❤


01.10.2010

Results were released. Did quite well overall, with GPA increasing each semester. Hopefully this continues. One module that gave me a huge shock was Business Communications - a module that I never thought I'll do well. Seriously, I really felt I did rather poorly for the last few assessments. For this, I must really thank our "ang moh lao shi", Mr Taylor. Thanks for being so lenient. =) It's really great to be taught by him. But sadly, it's his final semester in the school already. And now, he's back to his homeland, USA.


10.10.2010

Had a really huge scare in the evening. =( Thankfully, Uncle's alright shortly after. I'm glad dear's with me at that point in time, else I really don't know what to do.

I'm so sorry dear, that I've been "flooding" your clothes with my tears recently. You know, I always had to hold my tears until we met because I just felt comfortable to cry out with you by my side. But at the same time, I do feel bad too. I know you'll be at a loss of what to do. =( And yes, I felt really loved the other day, if you know which day I'm referring to. Thanks dear! ❤


11.10.2010

Finally got the chance to choose our time-table today. As expected, it was really due to our exemptions for the past three semesters that we couldn't get to choose our time-table until this time round. Took half-day leave to settle this, and guess what, I completed my selection at 10.01am! lolx. This one minute surely cost me dearly. -_- Decided to take full-day leave shortly after as I didn't have enough rest the previous night. Besides, I think this is kinda a well-deserved rest after three weeks of no-life life. This is what dear had advised me too, right? =)


19.10.2010

Last day of work. Kinda can't bear to leave, lol. Well, I guess it's a norm that one tends to feel this way when they left a job.

Gained quite "some" weight during the period because I had my lunch late. Then, can't resist the temptation of getting some bites on the way home since I'll always have to get through the food area on the way to the bus stop. Had my dinner shortly afterwhich. Hmm, so let's see.. Two meals plus some snacks within six hours. That surely explains the weight that I gained!

Dear forbids me to go on a diet. =( So I shall only eat less, and light, as suggested by him. Hopefully my tummy fats will go away soon, too. I really hate the sight of it. =(


22.10.2010

Plan was foiled. =( Nevertheless, part of the plan was accomplished. That is, to get a bag. =)

Saw a departmental store when we reached 313 @Somerset. Initially, I had only wanted to look around. Then, dear saw a heels (or was it called a boots?) and asked me to try on. However, my shoe-size was out of stock in this outlet, hence was told to check out the outlet at ION instead. Well, I guess nice things just aren't for me. It was out of stock in this outlet as well.

Anyway, I thought it was supposed to be a trip to get my stuffs? But dear end up getting more stuffs than me instead. Hah! But well, it's not very often that he takes a liking to something. So yep, he should really get them if he likes them. =)

Oh, by the way, dear's been dreaming these two days. Hah! But it's a positive thing. Just hope things go smoothly for him. You've got my support okay, dear? =)


23.10.2010

School's starting soon. My only regret for the previous semester was my failure to do my best for Cost Accounting. Sighs.

Oh well, I just hope history will not repeat itself for the upcoming semester, as well as future semesters. Hopefully everything goes smoothly.

Labels: Feelings, Holidays, Regrets, School, Shagged

26th April

It's been a month since you left..
I remember...

you used to care and dote on me;
you used to joke around with us;
you used to curse my favourite team, Liverpool FC, of losing this-and-that match;
you used to joke about the football players, like Torres, Gerrard, C.Ronaldo;
you used to antagonise me by discussing about Liverpool whenever they lost a match;
you used to place The New Paper at my window whenever Liverpool lost;
you used to place The New Paper at my window whenever Liverpool won an important match;
you asked me last year if I wanted Liverpool's Euro Away Shirt, as your friend works in adidas factory;

you used to buy me my favourite food - chicken wings - when you passed by pasar malam ocassionally;
you brought me to CD store at Jurong Point after my tuition lesson when I was still a primary six girl, to buy Daniel Chan's album - 风一样的男子 - after knowing that I like his songs;
you used to antagonise me with Nicholas Tse, too;
you used to bring brothers and I around when we were still young;
you got me a necklace when you striked lottery years ago;
you got me a costume in China, and I wore it immediately without even washing it, to pose for a picture;

you got me takoyaki and a honeyed chicken wing on the day we did spring cleaning this year. That was the last time you did that;

you looked for the most bargained PSP when you know brother and I were looking for one, and we had to disappoint you when we changed our decision to buy at the store that eldest brother had bought his;
you so willingly brought brother and I to buy PSP on 14 March 2008, when you actually doesn't have to;

you drove granduncles, grandaunts, uncles, aunt, younger brother, future sis-in-law and I to Little India and Bugis on 2nd brother's big day. On the way there, you were the one who told us S.R Nathan's residing place. Before we left Bugis for home, you gave us $7 to buy ice-cream. You said you didn't want any. That was the last time you drove us around;

you came over and sit with us at our table halfway into the dinner during 2nd brother's big day. As usual, you joked around, too;

you antagonised me with something (which I've no recollection of), and I stopped talking to you for a period of time. We slowly started talking to each other again. I regretted. I really do. I shouldn't have done that. That was so silly of me. I'm terribly sorry. I know it's useless now;

you asked me about granduncle's air ticket that Monday. I was a little pissed off before you spoke to me, hence the irritated reply from me. I so regret it. That was the last time we spoke, and I had to talk to you with that tone. I'm really sorry;

you were a supporter of Liverpool's arch-rival, Manchester United. Not forgetting your lovely Real Madrid;
Manchester United had won Liverpool the Sunday before you left, you must've feel great;
Manchester United vs Liverpool. That was the last Premier League match that you had watched;
I supposed you had watched the international match before you left, too;
I used to have football shorts (green colour) back then, thinking back, it must've been given by you. Silly me, I didn't know that was a football shorts back then. Hahs.

I know when you said some unpleasant stuffs, you certainly doesn't mean it. I know you cared. But as you know, I'm short-tempered. So I tend to get irritated at times. I was always apologetic after that.

I've so much memories of you. I've got lots of sorry to say. If only time could turn back, how great that would be? I would treasure you, your laughter, your everything... I would chat with you more often, advise you on that matter. I would take good care of you. Everything.

But time could never turn back.

Thank you for everything.

I so miss you. =(

All I could do now it to pray for you. You must live well in the other world, alright? We aren't by your side now. Do take great care of yourself. Don't worry about grandma, okay? We'll take great care of her, too.

Aiks. I'm crying.. I guess I can't continue any further...

This has been weighing on my heart for a month. And I'm still very much traumatised by this. =( Guess no one could help.

Labels: 26/03/2008, Down, Memories, Regrets, Reminiscence, RIP

Well, I had a chat with lion that very night. So he has quitted MapleStory about half year ago. Perhaps it's time for me to let go as well. A guild master can just give up everything so easily, what's more, I'm merely a junior master. So, yup.. I'll just let it be, since I can no longer do anything for the guild.

I always blame myself, for bringing on the downfall of Babylon2. Seriously, if I hadn't quitted late last year, Babylon2 wouldn't become what it has today. I played a major part in this. Sigh.

Anyway, I may be back to Maple during the September holidays. That's about a month and a week's time? I'm so looking forward to it. Time really flies. It's as though the June holidays has just ended. And now the September holidays will be arriving soon. XD

Labels: Babylon2, Regrets

It has been exactly a month since I started school. And Liverpool was crowned the new European Champions exactly two years ago, on this very day. <333 Mixed feelings. Hmm..

I have been waking up "rather early" these days. However, I was still late for assembly. ._. I already walked as fast as I could, but the school gate just closed when I was just across the school on each occasion. >_< By the way, I just realised something today. Bus 98 took a longer time to reach the Interchange than Bus 334. >.< I should have know that right from the start. But Bus 334 was always full to the extent that one could hardly step in to the bus. =/ Sigh.

The mention of bus reminded me of something. I saw my (sec 3 to sec 5) class mentor-cum-Maths teacher again (while walking home). When I was about to cross the road, I saw a white-haired man. First instinct - its him. His hair's very unique, you see. xP Actually, I couldn't confirm that it was him initially. Then, when he reached the bus stop across the road, his students called out his name. That was when I know I was right. =X I still couldn't face him. I can't bring myself to tell him how I'm doing. I just can't... Well, put this aside. I saw my (sec 1 to 5) Chinese Language teacher while waiting for bus yesterday. Not sure if he's seen me though. =X And I was sabotaged by brother to meet his teacher for his report tomorrow. ._.

Loads of regrets..

You'll Never Walk Alone.

Labels: 25/05/2005, Regrets