23.10.2012

Met up with YL like finally. 1 month seems to be 3 years (if you know what I mean). lol.

Initial meetup was slated on Saturday, 27th October. Then I happened to saw the ACCA briefing session which falls on this date. And so, jio-ed YL along since she's interested as well. That's what I meant by 志同道合 you see. ;)

Well, actually I'm still contemplating over UniSIM or ACCA. But I keep psycho-ed YL into choosing UniSIM with all sorts of reasons like how convenient it is as compared to SAA (which is freaking far, at Aljunied!), and she'll definitely have a company along (which is me, of course. hehe!) But then, I know it won't be easy to get her to take up the UniSIM degree. Sigh.

Oh wellll. Never mind. I didn't expect anyone to register with me in the first place, too. :(

27.10.2012

So, as mentioned above, met up with YL again. She seemed really uninterested in UniSIM, and even ACCA now. =\

Anyway, we went to the airport today! LIKE FINALLY!! I mean, it's not like I've not been to the airport. But I have always wanted to visit it out of my own free time - to walk around, that is. The Changi Airport is afterall, my favourite place. Well, don't ask me why. I've no idea either. But I must really thank YL. Some jerk promised me several times, but yea, that turned out to be a broken promise.

And so, we started off at Terminal 3. Walked around almost all the shops that are opened to the public all the way from Terminal 3 to Terminal 2, then to Terminal 1, and back to Terminal 2 for dinner. lol. We really spent quite some time there in the airport. :D Oh, and we got something with a great deal too, especially YL! ;) She's been eyeing my bag since I got it off real cheaply in Taiwan before we came back! Haha! She's definitely a happy girl now. :P

At the end of the day, we took the train back. Yea, all the way from Changi Airport to Jurong.. a freaking 1 hour 15 mins' journey. Actually we took longer than that.. at 1 hour 30 mins, because YL reckon that we'll be confirmed of seats if we took the train backwards from Tanah Merah-Pasir Ris-Jurong. lol. >.<

Labels: Friends

Wow. It's been so long since I last updated. Oh well. I'm not really busy to the extent that I have no time to blog, but rather, it's because I did not switched on my computer for these past two weeks or so. :x

So, this period has been "rather" smooth-sailing. Well, at least, as compared to the previous month. Have just passed the two-months' mark in this company. But no, I still hate working there. And that feeling's growing stronger each day I'm there. It's definitely a feet-dragging weekdays because I've seriously absolutely no wish to be there any further. So please, grant me my wish by having no budget for me for a year. i.e., a six-months contract will do. I'd be much appreciated, seriously.

Well anyway, went back to my main company for the new joiners' orientation programme yesterday. Went in the room, and the first person I saw was E., the person who almost became my project manager. Amazed that he still remembers me after two months. As friendly as ever. :)

Before the orientation ends, we were gathered for some team building games. Well, it's definitely not my cup of tea, because the theme of the game's about movie. Like, hello? I rarely watched movies; surely, you can't expect me to know, right? Yes, I'm sua-ku, or whatever you wanna name it. But still, I don't think it's a sin of not watching much movies. Get this fact right, alright?

Okay, that aside. The orientation ends about an hour earlier. Am totally in a mood of sianzation - I'm practically dragging my feet back to that place. Tsk. Probably what makes it better was the fact that I had to wait for the fourth train before I could board, because the first three trains all terminates at THAT damn station, and I had to wait for the fourth train which only terminates at JE interchange - all because I had to alight just one station ahead of where the first three terminates. Yeah, "lucky", right? -_- But anyway, thanks to that, that I don't have to reach the work place so early.

Alright. And so, it's our monthly meeting session again today. With YL, that is. We always have so much to chat about whenever we meet. lol. But we're really leading a very boring life - a conclusion which came after our session today. lol.

We were always pondering our next destination after our meals. And more than often, we were stuck. That sucks, right? We were cracking our brains real hard on the destinations, yet couldn't think of any. How pathetic, as a Singaporean, that we have no idea of the attractions, and had to rely on the websites for it. :x

Okay, anyway, I suggested going Chinatown since it's mid-autumn festival soon. But end up, there's nothing much to see. And we decided we should walk from Chinatown to Raffles Place. Yes, we really did that. lol! Well, it's not that far anyway, too.

And so, we passed by that very familiar routes which we used to take while we were on our internship. Passed by that Lau Pa Sat which we once dreaded going, but are now missing.

And next, I SAW ORQ!! Damn. It definitely brings back loads of memories. Believe it or not, but I almost teared, because I left my dream company after an 8-months' span in EY. :( I still dream of that place.. Dream that I'll be back there one day. I will, and I can do it. RIGHT?! :) Right now, I'm lost in my directions.. Am pondering once again, over what exactly I wanna do. Hopefully, I'll be able to come to a decision soon.

It's great to have such monthly meet-up session. It definitely helps in maintaining the friendship. :) Till our next meet.. Lotsa catchup again. ;)

Labels: Friends, Work

Went CDC with YL to visit PE earlier on. Glad that things are fine at her side. Hope she'll be freed from these soon. :)

While chatting, I popped up the topic on Taiwan trip again. Haha. >.~ This time round, it's us - the besties' first trip together. Hopefully everything goes smoothly. Can't wait!

I'm getting enthusiastic each time I spoke about Taiwan. Haha! Yeah right, as requested, I'm gonna be the organiser again. *stressed* Well, but I gladly take up the role because I know I'll get appreciated this time round, unlike the graduation trip this year that's dampened but that s.

Oh man~ I'm so so looking forward. Never mind it's only July now - our trip is in March 2013 tentatively. It's never too early to start planning. :)

Labels: Friends, Holiday

Alrighty. I'm back to continue my final post for 2011. So how's 2011 for me? Lots of ups and downs I'd say. And it all start right from the beginning of the year.

January

Just a week before Uncle Peter passed away, on 10 January, I was out with Mum and brother to shop for CNY stuffs when we received a phone call from Uncle Peter's buddy, Uncle Koh. He told us that Uncle Peter wants to give up fighting already, and wants us to give the go ahead for him. Of course, we weren't agreeable to it. And he seemed to have given up the thought a few days later. However, his condition turned for the worse during this period. Fever not being able to subside and internal blessings occurred. Breathing became very difficult for him and at times we were very afraid he'll be leaving us. I'm really afraid of receiving phone calls from brother when I was in school. Because a phone call spells bad signs.

We were all taking turns taking care and staying by Uncle's side from Friday to Sunday during that week. Breathing worsen many times but Uncle seemed to breeze through. Worsen again just before we left the hospital on Sunday night. However was alright after some time. For the very first time, I didn't mute my phone because I was really afraid Uncle might not survive through. All the way till I woke up for school, no phone calls from 3rd uncle who was accompanying him at the hospital. So I thought, no news = good news. Had planned to accompany him after my lesson on Monday. Then at 8.45am, Mum phoned and told me what I had planned too. At 9.10am, another phone call. This time, it was brother. He told me to get to the hospital. I thought I could still see Uncle Peter. But he last breathed at 9.19am, when I was hailing a cab. I couldn't assure him in time that he need not worry about grandma - the person he worries most. No promises could be made. And this really saddens me. Nothing could describe how I'm feeling. Even till now, it still aches me bitterly. Never in my life have I cried so terribly, not even when Uncle Mao passed away three years ago. 17 January 2011. That was the worst day of my life. This is definitely a very big blow to me.

My only regrets are not visiting you him often enough, and not giving him the assurance that I wanted to. :( Till now, I still can't accept the fact that he's left us. I really don't understand why such thing had to happen to such a great person like him. I really don't understand.

Dedicated a post to Uncle Peter on Facebook the night before we send him on his last journey. And that was when I 'sort of' return to Facebook.

But grandma's been well during the period of Uncle Peter's absence. I know for sure, Uncle's been looking after grandma up there. Right, Uncle Peter? :)

Oh yea, I did managed to fulfill something though. I've finally brought grandma out for exercise last Saturday. Though only once for the whole of 2011, but it's still better than none, right? =x

真的好想你。

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Posted about the heartbreak as well, and seeking forgiveness from the besties about my MIA. I suppose my family really did somehow found out about our patch. Heard from brother that it's also due to this that Uncle don't feel safe to leave what he's left with, with me. Hmm.. even Uncle also knows that jerk's unreliable, and is likely to con me of my stuffs. Well done, Uncle! But your niece's ain't stupid, hor. ;)

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March

Went Taiwan for a holiday, like finally. This trip definitely came at a time no better than this. Following the heartbreak, Uncle Peter passing away, as well as the stress over studies, this getaway is definitely a very much needed one. Oh, and this is the first oversea trip after like nine years?! Excited to the max can! ^_^

It was a 10-day trip to Taiwan and mind you, Taiwan's a really great place to visit! Totally fell in love with Taiwan and can't wait to go again! ^_^ Oh yea, did I mention seeing some handsomes over there? My xiao wei and alishan~~ Ahhhh!! Wonder if I can still get to see them when I travel next year. But luck's not with me, because my camera, or rather, the SD card died on me on the second or third day. I didn't know at all, and continued snapping around. Came back and checked the photos, could only retrieve a lil portion of it. Damn sad-ed, you know? Moreover, my alishan's gone too! Sad to the infinity can! I not only snapped pictures of him, but I also took a video of him singing. Like, what the hell! :'(

Luggage overloaded. Could be because it's my first trip there - lotsa things to buy. lol. So lesson learnt - I'm opting for 30kg for the trip next year. I'd rather pay a lil more for now, than paying so much more should I really exceeded the limit.

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April

Met up with the besties, like finally. We met on April Fool's, did we? A lil awkward too, because I haven't met them for so long. And I feel really bad for MIA-ing. Sorry gals. I'm really thankful that they didn't give up this friendship. <3 Anyway, it's bowling session that day. It's my first time too.

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July

Got back the Common Test results and I'm really disappointed in myself. I failed Managerial Accounting module, not by 1 or 2 marks, but by a relatively big margin. Made a grave mistake and it cost me dearly. Was so disappointed that I 'blamed' my ancestors for not blessing me no matter how sincere I am. And thus followed by blaming them for not blessing Uncle Peter when he's even more sincere than I am, and a very much better, filial person than I am. I know I shouldn't do that, but I just can't help myself, especially after Uncle Peter was rewarded leukemia with sincerity. I'm so sorry, ancestors. But now I know why they don't bless me. Mum just told me the other day that my grandfather didn't used to like me when he was still around. He was more of the traditional type - favours boys over girls. So, that probably explains why? Hmm.. But I'm glad grandma's not like my grandfather. I heard she loves girls. No wonder she dotes on me so much. And even till now, she's always looking for me. Like, there was once when I got home late and she didn't sleep because of that. x_x I'm still like a lil girl to her. She's always asking me to eat when it's dinner time, like so afraid I'll go hungry. Haa. Grandma, I love you. <3

Anyway, even till now, it still pricks me whenever I heard of people getting leukemia. It'll just remind me of Uncle Peter.. The suffering he'd gone through.. The life taken away. Why, why such a healthy person like him had to suffer this? But I thank God for not taking Uncle Peter away from us so fast. He managed to survived through a period of seven months, when the doctor had estimated a period of two to three months.

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Another thing. I went for a concert for the very first time of my life! Like, WOW! It's the Korean Music Wave 2011 and I'm so amazed. All thanks to my cousin, who came for a holiday with 3rd aunt and and her brother. My cousin's a truly Korean-craze. Haa. And it so happened that this concert falls within the period they're here. She wants to go so badly, and aunt got me to accompany her.

Actually I'm not that keen in going, because the concert so happened to fall on the same day as Aaron Yan's autograph session at IMM. However, she won't be able to go if I don't agree. So yep. Was really disappointed that I couldn't attend Aaron Yan's thought. :( But anyway, the concert was an experience for me, allowing me to see so many bands at one go, like U-Kiss, FT Island and the likes like Big Bang and 2NE1. Okay, I admit I'm really afraid Big Bang might sing a song, but thank goodness, guess that song was quite some time ago, so they didn't sang it afterall.

Thanks, cousin. You made it possible for my first. :)

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August

This final semester before the internship was really hectic. Totally no life, I'd say. Imagine coming home from school everyday, bathed and had dinner, then up next - sit infront of laptop to do projects. Well, that's been my life for the past six months of the semester. And when I said 'everyday', it's really everyday. Sometimes I really wonder why in the world did I put in hell lotsa effort, when the rest only put in so little, and gotten the same reward. Hard work definitely don't pay off. And this applies to friendship as well. Polytechnic friends to me, are just hi-bye friends. They aren't, and don't make good confidante. And if unlucky, you'll end up being a tool to them. That's my case, probably?

The way they, or rather, she treat me. And she still dare to say I'll surely be MIA after graduation. Hello? You don't know me well definitely. Family, to me, comes first. And friends' up next. Alright? I do cherish friendship alot. And they way you treat me really makes me feel like MIA-ing, too. So what, if I appears during the meet out? I'll always be the one who's being leftout, no matter what. And so what, when I'm always the one giving? You approached me for help, I'll always give all out. Yes, I do, no matter you're close to me or not. But end up? It's just fruitless. Would you appreciate it? No. Well, I guess no matter what I do, the treatment will still be different between us. If so, why don't you jolly well get her to help and just leave me alone?

Everytime I suggested / planned something, you'll disagree. But when 'she' suggested, you'll agree straight. Well, if you don't like my suggestions, then jolly well tell me. Asked me for suggestions, and when I suggest, you don't wanna take it. What do you take me for? Leaving me out is already good enough. And you still had to treat me this way. Oh, and I'm sorry, I seriously don't like the idea of 'her' going Taiwan with us.

I'm sorry, but this ain't the friendship I'd hoped for. Friendship to me, is all about being able to laugh and joke around together. I didn't want to elaborate so much actually, but I just needed a gateway to pour everything out. And my blog, is the best way to do so.

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September

Start of internship. Got into this company very unexpectedly. Was given the option to choose the companies and field that we wanna enter into. However, this company wasn't in the list. Was told that this company actually sent in the application late, hence the omission. I was thinking, since there weren't any company that interests me, I decided to choose the ones with very high pay, so there won't be a chance of me getting in. lol. Then, as expected, out of the six choices given, I did not get into any of it. The in-charge then allocate IRAS to me. However, she phoned me a week later and told me there's openings for this company and asked if I wanna take up the offer. I was like, WOW. Reason being, this company has been the one that I've been wanting to get in since Secondary 4. That was the first accounting firm that I heard of, which probably explains why the feeling for the firm.

So talking about the internship, I didn't learn much actually. Or should I say, it's too complex for me. This department's not what I wanted to enter. However, am glad that the seniors are all nice people. The executive's director a Dutch. Very, very nice and friendly person. :) However, he'll be leaving the company soon. :(

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October

"Quarreled" with one of the poly mates over the Taiwan trip. Thankfully, all's solved. Also went to my very first Dinner & Dance. But not able to wear nice nice though, because my seniors decided to follow the theme. :(

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November

Am showing signs of happiness. Somehow. My days will just be brightened up the moment I saw him. However, the timing seemed to have messed up totally and I could no longer see him. I don't like this feeling really. :( Why in the first place gave me the chance of seeing him, yet take back after awhile? I'd really rather I don't see him at all in the first place. No hope = no disappointments. And now, just because of that short period, I'm always so looking forward to seeing him, but ended up in disappointments and disappointments in the past month. And I suppose, there won't be a next again. Sighs. Such things always happen to me, no?

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December

Went for marathon like finally. Conquered 10km for the timing of 1:23:41. Glad to have achieved such good result, which was also below my target of 1 hour 30 minutes. Also surpassed my 2007 result by an hour. :) And by the way, Mum was so cute can! She told me to keep the running singlet as a "souvenir" and not use it, because it's unique due to the different design every year. lol.

Bought the camera at last. Not DSLR though, due to some issues. Second time back to that place to purchase the camera after September. Actually I'm already numb, but somehow upon reaching, and saw the familiar places, I teared suddenly. Told sis-in-law about it, but well. All I wanted to say is, not everyone take the same time to recover.

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Well, to sum-up everything. I'm really glad he's off my mind at last. Yeah, sort of. Should say, I'm already numb (no feelings) to his name. But his name and that place irks me still. And I'm still on the road to recovery. Hopefully by the time the future one comes, I'll be able to visit those places I detests with him happily.

For those who said this to me, "it's so long already. don't think about him can already." Well, as mentioned earlier, the period of recovery differs. One thing I'd like to say - I did not think of him. Everything just occurred naturally. As an emotional person and one who puts too much feeling into the relationship, if I say it doesn't pricks, I'd be lying. I think I'm already showing good progress to have come thus far. Perhaps for you, your recovery is fast. But hey, that doesn't mean everyone's the same as you. I hope you get what I mean.

Labels: 17.01.2011, Concert, Disappointed, Emo, Family, Feelings, Friends, HS, Internship, Marathon, Memories, New Year, Promise, Reflection, Regrets, Sigh, Stressed, Studies

Alrighty. So, the first week of internship has passed. Oh well. So far so good, I guess? My energy's draining out real fast though. I'm practically getting tired earlier each day; heavy eyelids as early as before lunch hour. Sleeping early doesn't help much too. :(

Anyway, something interesting here. I never fail to see Dinie everyday no matter where I am. It's like, sucha coincidence. lol. And just today, I was on my way to the escalator when a lady walked towards me, akin to blocking my path. Guess what? It's Evonne! Well, guess I was being too moody in the morning that I didn't take much notice of the surroundings. Haa. Been hearing YL saying about always seeing Evonne last week and now, I've finally seen her. ^_^

I'm glad YL's working near my company, else I'll be sucha pathetic soul having lunch alone daily. >.< Met YL for our first intern lunch on Tuesday, and Rina and Rika's there as well. Besides that, there's also HL, my ex-classmate, as well as ITE classmate, Asilah. Like a reunion, lol. And yes, this is kinda hilarious. They came in a group and I was wondering why there's this unknown guy tagging along. Didn't look at his face though; I practically thought he's their colleague. But guess what, he's actually CS! Yep, another ex-classmate of mine who's currently extending his internship. Like wow. lol.  He's the joker of the group, lol. Am glad that there's him with us, else we'll be so dead sitting there staring at one another.

On a side note, similar to the first meet, I still thought CS' an unknown colleague of theirs on our second lunch meet, until he said "hi" to me. Like a blur sotong only. LOL.

Rina prompted me with a question during lunch today. She thought I'm still with the jerk. Know what? The moment YL heard what Rina asked, she immediately halted Rina. Haa. YL sure understands me well; knows I'll go bonkers the mention of that name. Thanks uh. :D Oh anyway, that CS then go 走火入魔 upon knowing what happened. Keep asking whether my feelings' been depreciated, written-off etc? Crazy guy! LOL. Thanks for the entertainment by the way, lol. But sadly though, that he'll be back to school soon. Gahhh.. No more entertainment already. :(

Labels: Friends, Hilarious, Internship, Tired

Hilarious, humorous guy he is. Never fail to make me laugh at his words and actions. Haa. What he said earlier on, just keep swirling around in my head. Funny stuffs. lol. And if you happen to see me smiling/laughing all of a sudden, no, I'm not some insane freaks. It's just that I've always smile/laugh whenever I thought of hilarious thingy. Yep, that's me.

Labels: Friends, Random

Had a very last-minute decision to go out with the girls after school yesterday. Haa. So technically, it was the last day of school yesterday. Initial plan was actually school > print revision papers > home. Then, we saw Jess and YS in the library. Decided to have lunch together afterwhich. It's a like a slacking day, lol.

Labels: Friends, School

Seems like I'm not done with my appreciation for my friends, lol.

Feel more opened-up this semester and hence, was closer to MR (as a friend) this semester. And due to that, I'm always troubling him with school work, lol. Always shooting him with complicated problems. Hope he won't find me a nuisance. =X

The removal of the 15-minutes grace period sucks totally. =\ That would mean we're not allowed to be late for even a second, like what the f seriously. -_- In the event of a mass traffic jam or whatsoever, we can't be exused as well? Arghh, I just hate the removal of it. Petition please! =(

Labels: Friends, School

I realised I'm really slow that I only found out about something only near the end of the third semester, lol. It all happened when Varon lent me one of her lecture notes. She actually printed her notes in school, and I realised her notes are all printed double-sided. Was curious how she did that because all along my printings in school were all printed one side per paper. Thanks to her, I could now save money for the super-draining ink. =D

On the other hand, my clique became closer with Jess' clique this semester. Lunch-ed with them almost everytime when there's lunch-break. And my journey back home is no longer that lonely because I've got the company of Eileen who lives two bus-stops away from me. Hehs. She's always saying she used to see me and dear walking to school (in ITE) everytime, not talking to each other on the way, lol. The distance between us while waiting for train to school were not that far, and what's more, we're on the opposite platforms, but she has never seen me before at all, lol. And by the way, I'm really glad to have the company of her during the period where I'm having problems with my clique. Thanks, Eileen! =)

So, the two posts sums up the semester. Joy and disappointments in studies, but it's not bad overall. Friends? Problems surfaced, but I'm glad it's getting better each day. =)

Labels: Friends, School

Life hasn't been a breeze for me since last week, or rather, since this semester. Isn't it just amazed to see how people have changed, so easily? Well, that's part and parcel of life. There's nothing you can do, and you just have to live with it. But how? I know myself well, that it ain't going to be an easy task for me. I admit I don't handle such situation well, too. Oh well, I'll just have to try to bear with it. I know and understand what everyone will say, but seriously, this isn't what can be done over a day. Time is the key.

Rather than forcing both of them to split, I should just retreat on my own. It's either take it or leave it. If no one wants to pair with me, I'm fine. I can do it on my own. That way, I don't have to beg - for partners. It's no difference whether I do it on my own or with the other partner-less person, since that person doesn't always do her work too.

Anyway, I realised there's no friends in poly that you're able to really confide in. To each his own. In poly, they only care about themselves. Otherwise, it's probably just a facade. With that, I'm seriously losing confidence in friendships.


I'm really sick and tired of all these shyts. It's really becoming a suffering and stress for me each time I go to school. Shouldn't students be happy going to school? Why then, am I not?

Labels: Disappointed, Down, Friends

Common Test's over! Say 'hi' to relaxation. =D

Well, haven't been able to sleep well due to the Common Test. And due to this, I've been having headache. Urgh. Couldn't really concentrate on the paper today due to this too. =( But it's over. And it's time to recover back the losses from sleep.

Meeting the girls this Saturday for pool session. Excited. =D And the mention of 'pool' always remind me of the time when pig pig was coaching me, but don't dare to touch me. =P

The pain is killing me. So it's time to rest I guess.


I really hope you won't let history repeat itself again. I'm afraid, and I really don't want to go through the disappointments again. You won't know how it's like to be going through these.

Labels: Friends, Reminiscence, Unwell

Pei Er was lucky that I woke up in the middle of the night to switch off my handphone charger, else I wouldn't have seen her SMS, lest get to meet them today. =X

Meet up with the girls at Lot 1 today. It's been quite some time since we last met already. The last time I met Yan Ling was during Mei Bao's birthday and during evaluation for Mei Bao and Pei Er. So really glad that we finally managed to meet up.

Well, we went Lot 1 to make our friendship ring, like finally. lolx. Had the same taste as Yan Ling, while Mei Bao and Pei Er shared the same taste. So it's 2-2, lol. Final decision was the one Mei Bao and Pei Er chose.

Couple Lab is on Great Singapore Sale. Hehs. And we end up paying quite little with the craving of names because it's so coincident that the ring we chose was on 50% sale. =D Now thinking back, it's glad that we didn't make the ring the other time, lolx.

Labels: Friends

No LSR lesson today, hence meet out in the morning to complete our project. Surprisingly, it took only 2 hours or so and we managed to complete the project. =D

While on the way out, I saw a familiar face smiling at me. And on closer look, waved and spoke to me. That's when I realised he's really my former secondary school classmate, Jia Junn. What a coincidence, heh! It's been so long. Haven't seen him since we graduated. Had a nice chat with him. We spoke awhile and found out he's finished serving National Service and are now working part-time at school's Co-op shop. Anyway, I'm glad I didn't change route, else I'd miss him.

Oh, and brothers and elder sister-in-law told me something yesterday. They said Andy, elder brother's friend, likes me. That's like, LOL! It's impossible lah. It all began since Andy came to our house during brother's schooldays. Brother said he's always chatting with me when he came. Perhaps my memory fails me, but I've no recollection of these. =X And that brought me to something else. And that's about brother's wedding last year. Shan't elaborate about it, but one thing for sure - he saw me, LOL. =P But sad thing is, so long didn't met, and he didn't initiate a chat with me. =(

Anywayyy, I've finished Taxation and the deadly Cost Accounting tutorials! Damn happy because that's the first time I did Cost Accounting tutorial so seriously. And conclusion is, it's actually not that hard. =D Now one more tutorial to go and I'm done for the week.

Labels: Friends, Reminiscence, School

Went for rebonding just now, like finally. =X Been considering since third quarter last year, lolx. Uncle overheard aunt saying about my rebonding, and said, "no difference". lolx. Quite true, but I just want to rid those unsightly hair. And now, I really have to take good care of my hair already. Anyway, had straight cut for my fringe and it definitely looks.. ugly. =(

Had Kbox session last Saturday with that swan, Mei Bao, Yan Ling and swan's friend. Kbox leh! Poor poor me. =( That injured swan cheated me. Humph. *arrows* Finally met Yan Ling my les after so long. =D Getting slimmer each day. *envy* Back to Kbox session.. Swan's friend sings really well. *loves - his singing* But he's so bad can. Keep "forcing" me to sing. =(

Baby's alright at last. Gonna pick it up either tomorrow or Friday, depending on my mood. Then, shopping spree after that! Heh. =D But.. =(

SMS-ed her yesterday and I'm glad she has a nice boss and colleagues. Really hope she got those help she needed. =)


Korea or Taiwan? =(

Labels: Friends

Finally, I'm earlier than both Mei Bao and Pei Er. Yay! =D

Met up with them for our theory evaluation this morning. That injured swan was lolx. =X I took final theory evaluation while both of them took basic theory's. And she's like shocked. She thought she's going to be tested on final theory. LOL. =X Okay, understood. Too stressed already, right?

Anyway, I passed my evaluation with full marks! =D That was the first time. =X Really happy. After evaluation, *guess I won't mention anything*. Pei Er, Mei Bao~ See, I'm so nice to you right? =D Congrats on passing by the way. Weird theory though (the spectacles), on your passing. lolx.

I guess I took my evaluation way too early because I'll only be having my test in June. =X But well, I just want to clear everything as fast as possible. And I realised Mei Bao and I are the same type - clear stage by stage. =D

While on our way to wait for the bus, I saw a familiar face in the canteen. Thought I saw wrongly until she waved at me. She's Xun Hui. Haven't seen her for ages! Really surprised to see her there. So, she's there for her TP. Haven't got her reply yet. Hopefully she passed.

Oh by the way, thanks Mei Bao for the seed. Really appreciate it. <3 Actually, I had initially thought that that's a chocolate. ._. Because Mei Bao passed me the seed in the MRT station and it wasn't very bright over there. So.. yup. =X I know that injured swan will laugh at me for sure. =( RAWR~

But hey, I didn't bring enough arrows today. Else, that Pei Er sure can't swim back home. LOL. And I think after today, Pei Er sure remembers where the time is! LOL! Anyway, luckily there's Pei Er. Otherwise, there won't be that much fun among us. =D

Earlier on, I practised my make-up "skills". And to my amazement, the effects ain't that bad. Heh! That was my first full make-up without any guidance. Surprised that my skills ain't that bad afterall. But seriously, I'm still having trouble with eye-liner. That's so hard! =(

Hmm, saw her MSN message again today. Kinda worried about her. But I'm really at a loss at helping her. =(

That injured swan doubted my care and concern when I mentioned about this to her the other day. Sad. =( I may seem nonchalant, but I really cared for each and every one. But it's just a matter of expressing myself. I cared, but I don't really show out my concern. I guess, this is what eldest brother and I are similar in.

Labels: Driving, Friends, Make-up

Well, I've no wish to reminisce this time round, after so many things had happened.

I just want to blog the past away in this last post for the year. Yep, blog all the unhappiness away and stop tormenting myself anymore with the coming of a new year. A new year indeed. Year 2010 will be my rebirth. Not wanting to pinpoint or whatsoever, what I blogged about in this post are what that's been in my heart all these while.

Anxiously wanting to get rid of my phone to erase every bits and pieces of our memories. But still, messages from you today just defeat my purpose of switching to another phone.

This year is a nightmare. Tears, suffering, everything. They're way more than happiness. Who can I trust still? I could no longer distinguish between facts and lies.  Promises, are meant to be broken afterall. I've lost faith and confidence in everything. Love, is just not for me.

Get over it? It's easier said than done. I don't know how long I'll need to recuperate. Once a person has changed, he has changed. Totally. Period. I'll never be that foolish, stupid, etc, anymore.

Second sister-in-law once told me, never put in too much in a relationship. She's so right.

I shouldn't have agreed to this relationship in the first place. I should be more persistent. If only I heeded Mum's advice last September, I wouldn't be in such misery. Obstacles were cleared, yet we still return to square one.

Thinking back, I've actually never really felt a tinge of happiness for the year. All those are but eluding myself. Thanks for bringing me back to my senses.

I guess I'm really eluded by the surroundings, by the so-called "love". Mum was so right about our relationship. I should have listened to Mum in the very first place, shouldn't I? Second sister-in-law had been my confidante throughout this relationship. She's been very supportive of me no matter what my decision was, and I'm really glad and thankful for this. She, at one point, had talked me into giving a serious reconsideration in this relationship. However, like I said, I was just being eluded by circumstances into thinking that happiness was really there for me and hence gave up that thought. I admit I really did thought of it, but I just couldn't bear to give it up. Now, my stupidity had really got me all wrong, taking me to all sorts of sufferings.

The break-up had lead to me losing sleep, sleeping barely 2-3 hours per day. When I first talked to sister-in-law regarding my loss of sleep, she thought I was being overly-stressed by schoolwork, when only I know the truth behind it myself. That was before she got to know what happened. Then, came one day and I was being stressed up and cooped up with lots of problems. Sister-in-law came home and actually wanted to talk to me about something else. I thought I was strong enough to hang on, until I broke down finally.

This time, I really broke down. Second time within three days. I coughed up everything to sister-in-law. I'm really glad that she's there. Her care and concern had really touched me. Thanks so much for being there! And without sister-in-law, I don't know when the ice between younger brother and I will break.

And somehow after that matter, no one in my family spoke a word about him. I guess, it's either sister-in-law told them or younger brother peeped into my blog. But anyhow, I'm really glad to have such a family. I guess they knew about it quite some time ago already, but didn't spoke a word about it knowing that I'll get upset.

I admit I do get upset still. The hurt, will be there forever. Love hurts, how true it is. You won't know how much you've hurt me. I've said I wanna put behind everything after this post. But frankly speaking, am I really able to do that? I seriously doubt myself. It's gonna take time I know. This path is very long. But I know I won't be alone. My dear friends out there will be with me, right?

My dear friends, don't think I've forgotten you girls just because I didn't mention you girls infront. I'm really glad to have friends like three of you. I really value and treasure our friendship. While we're at this, I would like to thank Mei Bao and Pei Er. You girls know what you did. And I'm really grateful. You girls made me realise what true friends really are. Thanks so much for being with me all these while, especially that day where both of you travelled all the way to school to look for me. Of course, not forgetting Yan Ling. I know you cared. Thanks for the message!

The drama "The Seventh Day" is having a repeat telecast on CableTV. And I realised there's quite a handful of quotes, of which, certain ones really depicts how I'm feeling.

` 当上天把所有的门都关了的时候，必然会为你打开一扇窗！只要坚持，始终还是能找到这扇窗的！

` 上帝创造天地万物,做了七天时间,他将最美丽的事物,都放在世人的面前,所以人生在世,无论你经历过什么,只要你懂得珍惜,一切都可以是最美好的。

` 生命中，不断地有人离开或进入。于是，看见的，看不见的；记住的，遗忘了。生命中，不断地有得到和失落。于是，看不见的，看见了；遗忘的，记住了。 然而，看不见的，是不是就等于不存在？记住的，是不是永远不会消失？

` 每个人的缘份就在一念之间，错过了就再也不会来了。一次偶遇，一次小小的巧合，都是注定的。属于你的即使外界干扰的力量如何强大，心灵之间的感应也会彼此相同。身处何地，都会不期而遇。

` 人生就好像是摇摇板，你掉到最低的时候，就是你反弹高升的时候，当你要升起的时候，就会忘记之前的失落，可是，你对面的人呢？当一个升高的时候，另外一个就要从高处滑下来，两个人的命运就是这样交替着，人生就是这么起起落落。

` 有时候命运是很奇妙的，你以为要碰灰的时候呢，老天就会给你个惊喜。

` 昨天的错，换来今天的难过，今天的我，悔恨当初做错，难道今天的我，再认错已是太傻。

` 最美丽的第七天，第七天是短暂的，但却是最美丽的。一对恋人，无论是能够朝夕相对，还是相隔万里，珍惜在一起的每一分钟，过了的便好好回味，未尝不是一种美。生活中也是一样，没有什么是十全十美的，用心去发现，好好享受那一刻，记住最美丽的瞬间，你已得到很多。

` 黑夜的每个角落，都充斥著他的身影，弥漫著他的气味，残留著他的笑声，他与她的感觉渐渐失去……虽然失去了，至少你曾经拥有，和他一起笑著走过的一段路！
Perhaps, this is how I want to end everything.

` 无论你经历过什么，只要你懂得珍惜，一切都可以是最美好的！

This is a really meaningful show. It really trigggers one's thoughts on life, relationship and friends.

生活是很奇妙的，生命是很脆弱的，下一秒你不知道会发生什么事情，可能失去，可能错过，可能后悔。我们要做的就是好好的珍惜身边的人，好好把握时间，好好的完成自己想要做的事。

From now on, I'll be persistent and stand by my principles. I won't succumb to persuasion anymore.

Thanks for letting go of me. Your letting go had made me gain back alot. I once thought I've lost my friends, but it's not until after what I've gone though that, my friends are back with me. (I know they're always with me) This has made me treasured this friendship even more. And just like how I always said, that, family is priority, and friends are number two. Besides that, I've managed to put all concentration on my studies. I can see my effort in everything I do this semester. And perhaps, it's a relief to me, that, I no longer have to get stressed over our relationship in my family.

2009, is definitely not a year I'd wanna remember.

Will 2010 be a better year for me? I hope it will.

Labels: Friends, Memories, Past, Quotes, Thoughts, Treasure